It's very hard. He's watching you. Be transparent in your actions. No R talk. My H was similar in not being home. He couldn't stand to see me. He is hurt. I'm sorry - this sucks \:\( but we have to suck it up and be strong, even when we don't feel it...

....Understand, that I can't, not be what I am
I'm not the milk, and Cheerios in your spoon
~ Avril Lavigne ~
..."Nobody's Fool"...

me=ok /D'd since 7/07
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