Starting to really piece it back together

[Heartbroken]

H told me tonight he thinks he will break his lease at the end of April and come home then. I was really cool here, low emotions just reitterating that this needs to be his timeline and his choice (do not want his resentment later down the road). I am truly letting him control things for himself - this will be something I will always have to work on but I at least am now aware of how I used to be.

I cannot sleep now - you would think with Ow done and gone (she moves to the other side of town on Thursday - YEAH) I could relax. Not sure why I cannot sleep. We had dinner as a family at the apt and then H and I talked for 45 mins - mostly him stating why they fell apart and why they never would have worked out. H is thankful I never gave up or we would have been divorced by now too.

Baby steps - I am finally seeing the light at the end of the tunnel and NO it is not the train!