Today I am just numb. It has been almost a month since I have seen my XH and almost 2 weeks since we stopped communicating at his request.
It just struggle with "not caring". And I know that isn't the right words to describe it. It isn't that I don't care, but it is hard not to act on that caring.
I just worry he is going to "crash" and there will be no one there to help him. I worry that the people who he surrounds himself with won't see the danger until it is too late.
I have been silent about my conerns about him, at least silent to his friends and family. My friends and family know my concern. If I would ever talk to any of his friends and family about my concerns about him, he would FLIP OUT. that is why never went to them to express concern b/c I fel that the problem would be compounded by his anger.
And no I am not about to go to his family right now. If I ever leave the area I might talk to him mom about it. Not that she has any sway with him, but I sure can't talk to his 57 year old friend about it. I am sure she sees me as the cause of all his problems. I am sure she thinks he is fine. Because come on it is TOTALLY normal for a 28 year old man to hang out with a 57 year old woman EVERY NIGHT and EVERY WEEKEND!
I just want more for him. I don't want him to settle for a like that is "safe" and doesn't require him to really "feel".
