H is now on a new itennirary. he's been out of the house for 2 days. we're basically not on speaking terms. he just jumps out of bed and prepare to go out. maybe he's seeing another woman. that's what i think 'coz he told me months ago that he's gonna go look for someone better than me and much younger. REVENGE time!!!!!
i asked him 2 days ago, when he opened up about my past EA, what i could do to make it up, to regain everything. H told me "there's nothing you can do anymore, you've ruined your chances of proving that you are a good person". Ouch!!! it hurts so bad, it echoes every waking minute of my life.
H just went out awhile ago and dunno when he's gonna be back. i'm thinkin of going out too and look for job openings but my Ds are at home and D13 is having a fever. i feel so helpless and asking GOD to help me.
