hi MariS, thanks for responding. saturday night went by like this:
spent the night at my parents (i was house sitting) because my H went out of town on business. to my surprise....much to my surprise........he sent me a video showing me the place where he stayed and he even tried to show me the time on his phone. !!!! i didn't understand why but later on i did.
i had told him that i was doubting his whereabouts lately. he told me he hasn't lied about going out of town for work. so i think that's the reason he did that on the video. anyway, nothing has changed as far as him talking about our R. i don't ask and i don't expect him to either. it sucks. that night i thought i was going to feel miserable. for some reason God knows when to make things better. i shouldn't say better but it was something that took my mind of my H. my daughter started to feel sick and my attention was on her all night. i can't say that i feel 100% ok with my separation now, much less 50%. i miss my family being together. i miss those rainy days at home with everyone. i don't know how to take this comment though........"subconciously i do miss you. something way back in my mind tells me that i do miss you. but here (pointing to his face) i don't". i don't know how to take that.
what do you think?
me = 34 H = 35 kids = 3 worst day of my life: march 24, 2006 he filed: april 20 Present day: Wedding ring on, he's looking forward to another baby, taking day by day, we talk about our feelings whenever possible.
