Wow Cissy - Just read your posts. Boy, I can definite relate to your stitch. My hubby did the very same thing. Had a friend at work (his boss no less) that he became very good friends with when he left in Dec 2005. Swore up and down that they were good friends and that was all, but there were talking on the cell for 2-3 hours each night between 12:00 - 2:00 in the morning. (Hubby was living at his mom's house).
Hubby ended up returning home in March of 2006, slacked off communication with her (or so I thought), but hey - he worked with her. Did I really trust him? NO! My life was a living hell the whole time he was living with me. Even the kids were miserable. I found out he was "good friends" with several girls he worked with and that one of them would write him love notes and leave them on his desk. He finally got her fired for sexual harrassment and I thought all would be OK, but I still worried. AFter all, if he truly loved me, he would have done more to make me feel better.
Long story short, he is gone again. This time left in Nov 2006. Kids don't want him back and neither do I. I feel I will never trust him again - ever. I am finally happy and satisfied with my life and refuse to ever go thru that hell again.
I'm certainly not telling you what to do and I pray that your stitch turns out the way you want, but I just know that when my hubby moved back home, I was filled with stress wondering if he was lying, who and when he was talking to and about what. In my case, it affected my job, my relationship with my kids and my general well being. I am so much happier now.
Do I still love him? You bet - I love the man he COULD be if he tried.
Do I still cry? Absolutely. But I cried a whole lot more when he lived here.
Do I still wish for the fairy tale ending? Of course. I'd like to think that we'll get back together and have the marriage we were meant to have - we have been married for 22 years! BUT, I am now 40 and my life and kids mean more to me than ever before. I can't put myself or them thru the pain any more.
Will I ever take him back? Hmmm - toughie. He has a lot of proving to do in order for that to happen. And we will be living separate while that proving happens. I will NOT allow him to move back in, just because he is in a bad situation. He wanted to leave, he did, so now he has to live with his decision.
Don't mean to be a downer, but your postings brought back such memories and I just wanted to share my thoughts. It makes me mad when they feel that they can just use and abuse us like this and we will take them back no matter what.
