need a little encouragement

[kissak]

Me and H were separated for about 7 weeks. Then he decides to break it off with a woman he had been seeing while we were separated to come back. He said he weren't sure what would happen. I told him I understood, he basically was coming back because of our kids. It was tearing him up not being there for them everyday. We discussed everything about what went wrong in our marriage and decided to work things out. It has been about 7 weeks now. My H still has his apartment but has been staying at My house ever since. He told me a couple of weeks ago that the only reason he hadn't moved back yet is that he wanted to see how the money situation was going to be. I agreed. but 1 week later he brought up "in case he moves home....." I told him that I did want him to move home. He said, "well, I have just been waiting for you to say that you wanted me to." I must be reading him wrong. I thought he was in control , not me... Then I also told him that I do Love him because that is something I haven't been saying either. Didn't want to pressure him. And he said"I know you do", not I love you too. So I still know that he is not ready to say it yet. I feel like he won't open up to me all the way. Like he is afraid to. I never bring up relationship talk. Mostly because I am afraid to. I am scared I won't like his answers. We have talked some about future of builing our house again. He is trying. He offers to help with housework and things. The last few days I feel like he has been a little distant. I don't know if it is me dwelling on things, or if he is having second thoughts. I feel like I need reassurance from him on our marriage. I do not want him to leave again. I want him to trust me with his heart. He signed a years lease for his apt. I am hoping that when end of month comes, he will decide not to pay for another month and just break the lease. I will feel better when I know he is home with no back up place to go, if you know what i mean!
It was hard for him to break it off with OW, and I recently found out she is dating a new guy! Thank the Lord!!! Maybe she will leave mine alone. I don't know if that is why he has seemed a little down or not. I mean, I know they broke it off completely but because they work together, they see each other almost every day and they are good friends. It's complicated I know. I did talk to OW when they broke it off, and learned alot about her. She said she was sorry she hurt me.
I am just down when I think about things. I worry that he is still not happy enought to stay. I wonder should I say I Love you every now and then just to remind him that I do. Even though he knows. Or should I wait for him to say it. I don't want to say it knowing that I might not get one back.. What should I do. I need some reassurance from him. I have to trust him again also. Trust that he will not leave me again without ever telling me he weren't happy. Some advice would be appreciated. I am having a bad day. He hasn't even called me today. I did text him earlier to ask if he was having a good day. He said Yes. That's all. Am I wanting to much too soon? I know,,, at least he is back wanting to work it out. 2 months ago, it was no way am I coming back. It is funny how the reasons they leave in the beginning change when they want to come back. When My husband left he said we have grown apart, weve changed. You don't do this or that. When he wanted to come back, reasons changed to money was the problem and my parents. 2 things that were never brought up before as reasons for leaving.....What a Year this is!!! Help! Encouragement.........