I think you need some space from him. I've only seen what everyone has been telling me for weeks and it looks like you are riding on the ups and downs he is handing you. I see that you are leaving but what about when you get back? How can you put more distance and less contact between the two of you? I hope your C appointment goes well. Keep your chin up!
Me 31 WAH 30 M 5 Together 14 years S 4 divorced 7/11/07