I can understand your desire to want to be treated with more compassion for your mistakes. I am thinking cac4 may be having a hard time owning up to his vulnerability, and finds yours scary as well. He needs you to be the strong co-pilot and have the perfect back-up system. If he sees weakness, he gets scared and attacks. It's good you both are addressing this dyanmic now...with kids and with age, the vulnerability increases. We become aware of our own mortality and have health issues, we have to send our kids out into the world, our parents have problems, etc. I think it's really cool that you are both communicating here and working together...that takes guts! Lastly, mrs.cac, don't despair...once you begin to move forward, the setbacks feel so much worse. Unfortunately, that's the way it works...two steps forward, one back ( or some variation of that). Congrats on the progress you are making!