Journaling: H not in contact much this week. I had 2 nights of middle of the night calls from a blocked # (h) were I say "Hello, Hello" and he just listens. Yesterday I was out grocery shopping and d12 called to see if she could go out to lunch and shopping with H. I told her no problem. He came and picked her up and I was not home. When he dropped her off he did not come in. D12 said he had to go meet mow for dinner. Who knows. This was at 5.
At 7 H calls (quick dinner). He starts asking me how s15's speach went the night before at swim banquet. I told him that s15 spoke of loyalty and committment to the team and that many parents came over and told me how great his talk was. H and I talked for a bit. I asked how his evening was and he said he went out to dinner but now is back at parent's house doing laundry. He said he needs to find a job with benefits as his will be running out. He is on my plan at work. I told him when/if we D he will be off. I don't know what to think. Is he moving on the d or is he just trying to get to me. I guess I will let it go.
Tonight is his night with d12. He takes her to batting practice and said I should come down and watch her hit. He seems to be all over the map. I try not to analize his every move but I feel like this man is so out there. He keeps saying he knows that d12 loves him but noone else does. Does he really feel that way? I don't know if he will ever crawl out of the hole he is in. I thought MOW was out of the picture but i guess not. Although, I am wondering if the bloom is off the rose.
When h and I hung up he thanked me for telling him about s15's speach and for letting him take d12 for the day. He made a comment about s15 anger towards him and how he doesn't know what to do about it. I told him I didn't either and he still insists that I can do something about it. I tell s15 that I love h and that if he got help and wanted to come home that I would support that. It doesn't change anything in s15's mind. I wish H understood that.
