Mrs Cac yes I do take things personally. I'm working on that. I often feel quite inferior to H intellectually, inferior to his immediate family, actually. I've mentioned this to my ILs (we have a really good R) and they think I'm selling myself way short, as does H, but I don't know how to stop it. I did better when I WOH, but being pg and SAHM seems to have turned my brain to mush.
If you were on your own I am sure you could come up with a way to backup and handle your finances. Both you and Lili's behavior appears both needy and fused to me in this context, and putting myself in your H/bf shoes. That feeling makes me irritable.
Cac Id like to chat with you about a couple of things. If you are intereseted drop me an email. Its in my profile.