IWB...I see you're still at it. Everything you are experiencing, we all have. I remember the feelings of having your wife in the same house and not being able to even touch her. My W has been gone for almost a year now. I know it is easier said than done, but you have to let go. I know it's even harder when you have to see her every day. Back in January, I took a long, deep breath, and gave my situation and life to God. I decided to let go, and let whatever will happen, happen. My W has reiterated that she will file when she can. Funny thing is, I feel the best I've felt in a long time. Certain events have occurred in my life that I choose not to discuss yet. But, I took a leap of faith, and feel that I am going in the right direction.
Ken, whatever you do, do not blame yourself. Don't feel that God is punishing you for something you did wrong in your life. I've learned to see this experience exactly as it should be; a learning experience, a life's lesson.
The best thing you can do is maintain a PMA. Even when you don't feel positive, you can will yourself into a positive attitude. I could not believe my W's reaction to my attitude. Albeit, she will still file, her feedback has definitely changed from venom to civil. It will make things easier in the end.
Ken, I know I've told you before, but keep your head up. Realize that these things are out of your control. Let go and let God. You will be rewarded in the end. Anyway, we have to keep the state of Maryland a promising place to live.
PoohBear
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
