Catching up after a PC breakdown and having to do somewhere in the region of 1,000 hours at work (or did it just feel that long? LOL)
I am SO GLAD you've got your goal. I note you say you still feel insecure. Go with it, it's totally natural. My recomitted back in Oct/Nov, it's ONLY JUST now that I'm starting to feel relaxed.
There was a time my heart used to sink when he walked out of the door with his gym bag - the same bag he packed his stuff in when he left me. Now I can look at the bag and not give it a second thought!
But it took some work on me (individual C sessions) and a LOT of patience with myself to get here. I told H as well that I did appreciate him being recomitted but I had had a big shock so was going to be a little while getting over it and asked if he'd bear with me. he was happy to give me that space and understanding.
You have had a MAJOR life shock, this is going to take TIME for you to get over. Maybe think about sitting H down and explaining that you appreciate all he's done, you just need some time to get used to it, to recover. From what you've said of him he's a caring man and will be happy to do that.
What do you think?
Bomb (ILYBINILWY, don't want to be married)Sept05 Seperated Sept/Oct 05 Oct 06 - H recomitted July 11 - I am now a WAW.
