Well my H is home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! \:\) \:D \:\) ;\)

.... he got here last nite and I could not stop smiling.
And BTW he does taste better than my Favorite Hersheys Candy bar~ ( get your minds out of the gutter you all ;\) )
I have hugged him and kissed him a lot~ I am actually enjoying kissing him a lot and he is too. I am spoiling him. And he is actually reciprocating.
He is being so sweet~

He lifted me up, I wrapped my legs around his waist

(when we had a minute alone... he brought a friend along, From Mexico to visit for 6 months, My MOM was over and our 4 kids and my brother and his son were over ....FULL HOUSE )

and carried me and spinned around and hugged and kissed me .... That was THE BEST!!!!!!! THE BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have so far been able to be me and not lock up like I have in the past,,,, he will only be here for a few days and then he has to leave out of state to work...

he is already talking about next time he goes to Mexico... the whole family will be going! (OUR D9 asked him when we will be going to Mexico ) Which to me says ..
I AM COMFORTABLE AND I FEEL SAFE WITH YOU AND I LOVE YOU .



I am very pleased.. it was VERY, VERY, hard to let him go and I missed him terribly. But I do know this was a blessing.I know I was scared b/c of the other Woman sitch and this time he was going by himself etc etc... But I did it and he did it and he fell in love with me more and missed me soo much too.

He has not said I love you to me but I have come to accept that he has always says to me do not tell me you love me show me! He is showing me he loves me~

.... so when he does say ILY I am walking on a cloud for weeks and it feels so good but this is ok for now.. I dunno if he will ever go back to saying it daily like he used to but he is showing me now more than ever that he loves me... Ya think? I do~

He also bought me a bracelet. He knows I love them.
He bought himself one just the same~
It has Saints and the Holy family on it it is just beautiful..



.....but this one so special cause he has one too and it seems he bought it to protect us,, our culture you know. As silly as it seems it is to me like our wedding rings~ Symbolism for me anyway..

Which BTW he has not put back on he does not wear his nor do I normally but I did start to wear it again while he was gone. When we were separated and we had a R talk he said he would never wear it again if we were ever to get back together and so that day I took mine off too. he still carries his in his wallet.

All in all I feel blessed and I hope to keep making this better.
He still unfortunately has the dreaded Tattoo,, hopefully one day he will cover it.
...but he will have to do it on his own.
I DO KNOW~!
I will mention it~!
He needs to also do this one on his own,, he has grown more and he will one day ( I hope ) realize the Tattoo has to go . So for now ( Thanks COG ) when I saw it I was ok... it is just ink . I want to get out the SHARPIE and cover it ;\) . But really for now it is ok. I will not let her or his bought with Temporary Insanity ruin these few days we have together. You know I read somewhere that it takes a Month for every year of M to repair a M and we are now on month 7 of reconciliation so I hope it is all uphill from here but it is not written in stone~

So I must~
keep positive~
keep smiling~
keep hugging~
keep kissing~
keep feeding his EGO~ ( complete 180 for me )
keep loving him the way I alone know how too~
keep snuggling him~
keep saying how I feel not keep it on my head~

Like ILY, I missed you so, You are the best, etc. etc. ( another 180 for me)

keep working on my health too~ (he has noticed and complimented me on my hard work!~)
keep touching him whenever I feel like it~ ( another 180 I always used to think I would just be bugging him)
keep ~.......... the list is endless!

It is sooooooooooooooo true when they tell you keep working on you it works wonders....




Thank you all for your blessings. I feel so happy,, I will keep working at this until it just feels like me. One day it will come even more natural to me. This is good ,no this is DIVINE! My Hard work is paying off and leaving my Ego out of this as much as I can has helped enormously!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
God bless...