Take care of yourself during this time. You can not control what your H will or will not do and fretting about it can be unnerving.
This past week, my H emailed me to tell me he filed for D and I should expect the papers in the mail. Nice eh! Before this, I kept wondering if and when he might file and fretted over it and lost sleep and yet now that it is approaching, after being separated for 14 months, I realize that other than legally ending our M, the sitch remains the same; we are apart.
The difference is for me. No more analyzing, wondering, worrying. While I still will stand for my M, his filing for D is actually freeing me from the chains.
Live your life for YOU and don't let what he says and does affect who you are.