okay. had to get off. I really don't want H to see me getting on here anymore than he does. Not that I'm trying to be all secretive or something, but I consider this like a journal, and I'd rather him not read it.
Anyways, as I was saying, I'm totally okay. Even before the whole thing I was talking about how all the girls had their boobs all sticking out, and then about me not having any, but I got the "badonk-a-donk" in the back...shaking it around and they all cracked up.
What was crazy, is right after I talk about it I turn my head and a girl has her shirt up with NO BRA! ya, I see her naked boobs. just what I needed to see! and no one else saw it.. which I'm glad though. Then it happened to my H at the bar, then to me again later that night. 3 times! Is that ridiculous? I mean how sick it is for girls to be that flaunty to show their boobs to everyone who can see. Are places getting worse now? I NEVER EVER saw anything like that in all the years clubing when I was younger.
I wish there were bars where you could dance, and there wouldn't be major drunk people falling all over. Even one girl, that my H's friend thought was cute, ended up feeling me up and kissing me! I didn't even know what the heck to do! I just stood there in the bathroom in shock! My H was like, dang, why couldn't you guys have done it where I coulda seen it. He is so bad. Of course he's always kidding, but you know guys, they would love to see girls in "action".
So, very interesting night I must say. At least my down time only lasted a few minutes. The rest of the night was nice, we went out to eat afterwards (alone) and had a nice conversation and I didn't feel totally awkward..although I was tipsy.
The whole awkward thing. It's just that I sometimes still feel weird going out with H by myself, like we've had the kids involved in anything we do, never us alone, unless it's ML, so sometimes it's like we have nothing to talk about. I really don't want to end up like the older couples whose kids have left the house and they end up divorcing because they have lost touch with each other and don't know each other.
I just never felt that real connection with my H, so I hope someday our R can grow into a really good R.
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
