I must tell you that after 7 months of seperation hell I have decided to give up and move on. We are in according to her "divorce" counseling. I am tired of paying bills on a house and lifestyle I am not allowed to have. So I instructed my lawyer to get her side to start moving. Lately she has been nice to me, although she does not know that I have instructed my lawyer to get them to move. Last night I went to see my d. at a ballet. When she was on stage I quietly cried. I tried very hard to hide it. The w. saw it. She talked to a mutual friend wondering if the tears were real. The friend said hell yes! My goodness is the w. that dumb. This is very painful! On a side note she and I did have a nice time together, joked laughed etc. However at one point she introduced herself as w. smith and this is julio smith rather than as my h. julio. I am not surprised but is was sort of a shock to hear that.
Anyway, I am preparing the next stage of my life. We need to split the only real asset we have - our house. That will be painful - more so to her than me. Maybe the shock will cause her to think about things maybe not. However waiting only hurts me. Yes I do hope for a result like success' but I just cannot wait anymore. It is killing me.
