AND, H wanted to go to movie last night and not go clubing (I love to dance, and he's never taken me. only if other people were there, okay, that only happened once 3 years ago) Sad huh. He danced with me the first night we met...and he's a good dancer too.
Anyways, he calls his buddy to go with us to movie. kinda irritated on that cause we NEVER go out alone and it's only happened once in 2 years probably. But that's okay. I felt kinda alone in the movie theatre..he wasn't talking to friend more than me, but I did notice he really looked at me one time.
Well, what is cool is that he told his friend I wanted to go to a club and to see if he'd want to go. so that was good. And actually, I think I would feel awkward being their alone with H. that's so wrong on so many levels. But it's true. Probably since it never happens I guess.
Well, we had a good time, and the guys were cracking up at me because I was being very crazy..talkin smack to em and jokin around.
My H said he did have fun, and so did I. Even got a drink paid for me. But it happened when I felt like I was going to cry because we were talking about his friend not getting "laid"..don't like that term in this context.. and that he just wants something with boobs. I'm like, no he doesn't..then he's like every single guy in here... I stopped him right there and left. said "I don't wanna hear" and went to the bar. I think he had no idea I wanted to bawl right then. I'm the flattest chested girl (besides maybe one other) in the whole bar, and all the other girls have their boobs out of their shirts. So I'm at the bar, my eyes probably red, tryin not to get upset, and this guy looks at me and says he'll buy me my drink. very cool. that's never happened before I don't think. Then I told him he made my night go better, and also told me he had been watching me a lot or something.. guy was pretty drunk. He knew I was married too cause I told him. So that was cool. I felt ALOT better after that.
and it totally reminded me of you nikki. like when that guy gave you a flower at the store.
I know I need to get over the whole boob thing, it's just really really hard. Sometimes I'm totaly okay... gata go for now
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
