I am not real familiar with your situation but wanted to comment on some of your feelings...my H came home after being gone for about a year and half...it is hard to get to the place where you are not afraid they will leave again...I understand that...as I went through that...in my mind if H would just tell me he loved me then I would be okay...well finally after 2 years he told me on our 27th anniversary that he does love me...yet things are still hard at times...I still don't understand him at times...and like your H...mine feels that his coming back should be enough for me to know he is here to stay?!?!?...My H says that he shouldn't have to tell me he loves me all the time because his being with me should show me that he loves me....after he reasons that out I feel like an idiot that is not appreciating what I do have and am whining about 3 little words...but they are my feelings...
I can say as time goes on...the panic lessens...I also understand about going to work...H had an office that he would go to and it seemed that only bad things came from that...how relieved I was when he gave up the keys!....baby steps still occur and that is what I try and keep my focus on...to make sure we are going forward and not backward...so far so good...
