Looking Up

[Heywyre]

It's true COG, he does love me, I know that, regardless of the A. He even told me that all the time it was happening he kept telling himself that it was wrong, he never, ever once thought about leaving me and never, ever blamed me for any part of it. That I do have to be thankful for

I truly believe it was the way he was brought up - very British family, no one showed affection or knew anything about anyone's elses business.

This loving unconditionally isn't as easy as it sounds is it. As a matter of fact, he was going to bed last night (and he usually likes me to come and lay with him for a couple of minutes because I don't go to bed until several hours later - almost when it is time for him to get back up) and he said "thank you for being such a wonderful person, I love you". I said "I love you too" and his reply was "why" and I said "because you are a good person". He kind of chuckled and said "I haven't been lately" and I said, "you will get back to that person soon, I have faith in that". We hugged and he went off to sleep

Some might think I am being a martyr but I know the person he is, I love the (basic) person he is, we have both put a lot into this R and I am not about to throw in the towel over some silly little nuisances that don't really matter one way or the other. The main thing is, he loves me and he isn't seeing the OW anymore. The rest we can build on.

Thanks COG - your replies and comments are inspirational