You have to learn to "forgive" and learn how to deal with anger. Yes you have every right to be angry but yet you need to let it go too! If you don't you will never truely forgive him and if things do work out between the two of you... will that anger and resentment come back up later and not help things? Just something that you need to think about and work on.
Honestly, I think you can do this. Once you start focusing on yourself then you will feel better and it maybe easier to let go of some of the anger. to me it seems that you are going thru the natural stages of greiving the loss of someone you love. Yes you truely didn't loose your H in death, but you did loose him.
Let's take it 1 day at a time and let's work together thru this.
wife of an addict M 39 H 39 D18 D 16 Together 19 M17
