you just keep convincing yourself of this and tell yourself over and over that you dont deserve any better. keep swallowing the [censored] and try not to choke on it, and maybe you could do some of that self flaggilence too it might help you really feel bad. dont forget a couple of confessions with the priest because cog deserves all of this bad treatment. you do not deserve this punishment from your wife and that is what it is. i am sorry and you can tell me to go to hell if you want but your wife is a selfish bitch. she is only interested in herself and she is too wound up in her own little world to see that you are hurting. tell her to reach deep down and find some compassion. you are being punished. you keep trying and you get slapped in t he face over and over. you are not a dog. getting an occasional pat on the back for good behavior is not enough. you need more and you deserve more. cog we all [censored] up in our marriages. this is part of the peicing. BOTH have to work at it not just one person. stop feeling guilty for having feelings. too bad she doesnt have any.And did i mention that i hate the smell of burning martyr.
