Thanks 1210
I will try and do that. I always tell myself don't talk to him every time he calls but I usually do. I don't sit around and wait anymore. I appreciate your help

I just had a phone call from my SIL (whos is my H sister and a good friend of mine) She had talked to the OW SIL and found out a whole bunch of stuff. The OW has slept with my BIL twice and He is not married to the sister but is H brother. She also tried to get at another B whose wife had cancer but he didn't go for it. She is after money and a name only thing there is no money right now would she be surprised. I guess she tried to trash me to her family and they stood up for me saying that I was a good mother and wife and was a hoenest person. It is a place where people know each other so we are known and I guess they thought they were keeping it a secret.

I was doing good and proud of my self for not snooping. I have told him all about her and he didn't believe me. He doesn't know about the 2nd time with his B because she told him she didn't. But she told her own family she did.

I know it doesn't do any good to think about it. I had even told 2490 not to think negative thoughts and here I am. I guess I just needed to vent. YOu and imLin give such good advice and are so supportive I just had to talk. I know not to bring it up but what goes thru their head (iguess nothing but sex and a fun time no strings attached.) She is such a lying and manipulating person and treats her kids like nothing.

What is so weird she comes from a good family.

OK I just needed to vent and obsess for a minute maybe now I can sleep a little. I just hate it and then you fight your head why am I staying. He has been really good the last week which makes me nervous because I don't know if he is being nice or just felling obligated to call. He used to call me then call her every morning early. then he just called her early and me later in the morning. Now its back to calling me in the morning. I haven't gotten the phone bill to see if he still calls her. I'm sure. AHHHH

Sorry I'm by myself so I just need to write a story.

My financial situation is we had to invest in a family business since the accident of our nephew and it has us strapped now. it would be foolish for me to leave. but sometimes I think mentally will I stay sane.

I'm not getting any younger and if he really had any feelings for me he would have come back and stayed. I guess tonite I'm just fighting my head.

Thanks for the advice and I know that obsessing does no good. I guess writing it helps me deal with it.

I am stronger now and know that I can survive where when I used to hear about her and him it would devestate me.