Basically had a good day with H. Then this evening H mumbled something about going out for a beer. I asked for him to repeat it....wasn't sure if he wanted to go out for a beer alone or if he was inviting me out. We did go out. While we were out he had a text from the friend I have been upset about. Just now we had a conversation about why that friendship upset me.
I needed the duct tape when I asked him to repeat the question. He thought I was being critical about HOW he asked me out and why should he have to watch every word he said. I explained that there were times we needed to clarify conversations so we didn't have a misunderstanding. If he had explained earlier about the benefits of the friendship I don't think I would have been as jealous. I can't explain all the reasons I am jealous because he would know I have been snooping (checking phone calls mainly).
Right now I'm not sure our R will ever be right. H doesn't want to work on our communication skills, doesn't want to change his pattern with friends, doesn't want to have to explain where he's going or who he will be with... even though he knows I'm more sensitive due to his recent affair.
Am I crazy to expect improved communication????? Matilda
