Thanks John,
I guess it is just reassuring to have someone tell you to hang in there. It has been a tough struggle but I have improved alot. I'm trying hard to GAL like I used to have till I thought I had to do cling to H because I realized finally that I was loosing him.

It is amazing how many post and M have gone thru the same situations. I wish I would have found this site years ago. What a difference it could make.

Thank you so much for your support.