New development today. Well, it started brewing yesterday, and I wish I could say I didn't see it coming.
H's typical work trip pattern has been to be 3-5 days later than originally planned. Every time. Which made it oh-so-convienient to conduct extramarital affairs for three years. This happened, that happened, he needed more equipment to finish the job, he needed a day or two to crash after a week of 18 hour days/nights at work...blah, blah, blah.
He was supposed to be home this weekend. First real trip since the bomb and the baby steps back toward our M. Yesterday, he was having unexpected trouble with a server. Today it's the same server and several client computers and a printer. Can't get the equipment until Monday. So he's in OW's town over the weekend without the things he needs to finish his job, and certainly some free time on his hands. I believe him, want to believe him more than anything. But how do I not feel disappointed and somewhat scared?
I'm doing okay...trying to keep myself upbeat and focus on the fact that he sounded really upset that things weren't going smoothly, that he sounded so sincere when he said he just wanted to get out of that town. I know he needs to feel trust/acceptance/approval from me to feel ready to come home. How do I give him these things when I feel so afraid that he isn't being honest with me?
