I am trying to calm myself down. I feel like I have swallowed 100 butterflies. I have done many things today none of them very productive for any one but me~ I took a bath. I put on makeup. I played dress up. I have been watching the style network. I have been snacking on dry crackers cause ... I ate tomato soup and a bagel earlier and I feel like I am going to get sick... EEEWWWW. I normally am not this " HIGH MANTAINNANCE" but today it feels good to just do nothing but spoil me...... (((I do have some paperwork to do for our Business but I will do it later... I deserve to still be in my Pajamas at 2 pm once a year! ) My room looks immaculate and it is ready for focusing on "US" When my H left 2 months ago it was a lot too lived in! So yesterday I put the finishing touches on it.... I finished organizing it. This partly distracted me too,, I know it being organized frees my mind up even more. My h called this morning and he said he would be home soon. I am nervous but I think I can do this..... I am soo excited to see him. I am looking forward to seeing him and I hope to embrace this time together and not forget how much I missed him when he arrives and the luxury of sleeping next to him gets familiar again. I want to keep it new for awhile and make him feel really wanted.. and this is going to be the real test for me not to get lazy/comfortable and keep doing something to keep him feeling loved. Lots to think about and lots to do.... I think I will take a nap now... I feel overwhelmed... But blessed, really truly blessed. GOD bless..