Hang in there. I know that the clouds seem so thick and dark and it seems like the fog may never lift. But it will. Trust me. I've been there.
Your H is just trying to numb his pain for now it seems. Have you tried reaching out. If nothing else, write him a letter a week just telling him how much you love him and care about your family and that you want so much for both of you to heal and find a place of peace and happiness. At first, he might scorn you and get angry. Eventually, all this will pass.
I told you this wasn't a matter of weeks or days...H is going to take a while to heal. Many months maybe. But you've got to have faith. I've been at this for 8 months now and have learnt more about myself than I ever have before. Use this time to become the best person ever! Reinvent yourself and excel at raising your children and school and everything else that is not in turmoil.
You are now in the autumn phase of your M. It will be spring soon sweetie, trust me!! Take heart.
You're such a good person for trying so hard and know that good things come to those who endure, persevere and survive. It will come.
rainbowlove ---------------------- ALL IS COMING AND I'M GRATEFUL FOR ALL THAT IS ALREADY HERE!
