Preparing for the end game, maybe.

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This W being nice and acting happy stuff is going to drive me crazy soon! ;-P

Her attitude is better. She can touch me when she goes by me now, without acting akward. We talk, and laugh. We do things together. And then it's time for bed and she goes to hers and I go to mine. Still no ILYs. It was almost easier when there was pain and tension.

I fear falling into the good roommate, good friends, but bad marriage trap that we were in before. I fear not moving ahead enough and her losing patients and deciding to leave after all. I fear I will lose patience. I fear her meeting someone in AR. I fear growing apart from my D when she lives in AR with W.

And I ache for the love I want; physical and emotional. (Some of that is just being a male I think. I'll have to find a satisfactory way to deal with that. ;-)

I'm working on a plan, a philosophy, to help me through this 'good' time. Do I continue acting as I was (modified LRT) or do I start practicing more of the DB techniques? Do I start pushing her, or keep giving her space? I think giving her space is still the right answer. Much thinking needed. Help me out, guys....