J- Seems like I barely post anymore. Probably because I'm in limbo-a good one-with H right now. And because all my writing time is taken up in other venues. (Just got my first rejection from a literary agent-and it was a "good" rejection, as far as those go!)
Your sitch still draws me in, because of the similarities. One of the differences is that your H is expressing his eagerness for you and your family to move to where he is. Mine hasn't done that-because he's worried of the burden, or because it's not that important for us to be together (who knows). And I really wish he would. But if my H was like yours and excited about us moving to where he is, I think I would react the same way you have. Ironic, huh?
I also requested that forgiveness book at the library. I have the same issues as you with regard to my H acknowledging what he did. It hasn't been too hard to stuff them, because we don't have much contact. But I do think, once he shows up, these emotions I have put on the back burner, in favor of my desire to be with him, will come up.
You must have hit on something with your H when you mentioned to him that acknowledgin his regret for the past helps you! Good for you for finding that opening! A lot of times, men just have no clue what is swirling around in our heads. And we are shocked by whats ISN'T swirling around in theirs.
And, there is no if...In the biggest town in Alaska-you would be a fool not to capitalize on your LA theatre experience and open up your own playhouse. Not that I'm saying you HAVE to go there. But, in my experience in a small Alaskan town...if you've got any kind of talent, people are drawn to you.
Well, I've taken a break from my writing project this morning and now it's time to get ready for the job that pays the bills...yech, blah, crud...I'd like to be in big town Alaska right now instead of small town Wisconsin, that's for damn sure. Although I'd take the Pacific Northwest over anything else. That' where my heart it...and will probably never live again...(sigh).
