first of all im sorry that i wasn't able to post for a long time. im in "hibernation", trying to reflect and contemplate on the things that has happend and is happening in my life, in my marriage. im desperately trying to find aswers and solutions to the tons of problems i have. i sometimes feel i couldn't make it anymore, i want to give up. im drowning but my Ds keep me afloat, but i dunno for how long.
the days in hibernation i spent with my Ds, completing my requrements for graduation and studying for the exams. i also watch Oprah and Tyra show whenever i could since i could not post 'coz everyone's using the computer. there are also days that im more irritated and angry than happy. its already straining my R with the Ds esp D13. i dont want them to be affected by what im going through right now. i love them very much, and it hurts me to put them through this. i dont wanna make it worst for them. would it help, if i go away for awhile? im in the worst of a bind right now, no money, no job.... Gosh!problems do come one after another.
im trying to divert my attention by watching my movie collection over and over again. i just practically stay inside the bedroom and watch movies esp when the Ds are in school, and H is using the pc morning to night. i sometimes go outside and play with the dogs and do some gardening since i dont have class anymore and will be graduating next week, hopefully.
well guys im thankful for this chance to post (H is sleeping). thanks for reading.
