She is confused. It is a good sign that she says she still loves you but there is that infamous "I don't know if I'm in love with you". I hate that one. They still are I think. It is just under a bunch of sh*t and they are blinded by infatuation and a fantasy - instant gratification_(which I think is deadly in my opinion) and something new and exciting feeling with the OM.

I know it is hard, every single day I check (which I shouldn't but can't seem to stop myself) to see if they have contacted each other, and sure enough, everyday. It does hurt. But hang in there.

It is also a good thing she said "when" it ends. That sounds like she is going to , but is maybe having a hard time and you know, God forbid they hurt this other person, that would be terrible, wouldn't it. Sorry for the venting, but the hard reality is they really feel like they owe this other person something and don't want to hurt them unfortunately.

I got to a point where I feel I could no longer take, it, too. (which is when I kicked H out). But my anger went away and then it took him awhile to come back because now I had hurt him and he couldn't figure out how I could do that to him. Makes R worse.

But I just had another talk with my H about the calls and I told him it was not ok with me and it will ruin us in the end again. he agreed, but I don't know if it will do any good. Because he did say they miss each other (gag gag gag ). Sorry again.

Just keep posting and venting here. I know it hurts. Some days for me were just too much too take and still are. I just want it all to stop, too.

Hang in there,
Cissy