I haven't seen/spent any time with H for ten days--hopefully he'll be home this weekend. He has been very good to call often and chat, and I appreciate that very much. It's still a little scary to know that he's working in OW's facility this next day or two, and though I believe he's not into it with her, it's pretty tough to not worry about it. He lied to me for so long, it's scary to be here. Yuk. BUT I AM STRONG AND HIS ACTIONS DO NOT AFFECT MY EMOTIONS. So I'm still working on the garbage-in-garbage-out process with these worries.
I have considered the idea that H is avoiding really committing himself back to our R, because he has no idea where to start, and it's overwhelming and confusing. So it's just a lot easier to avoid and pretend he doesn't have any responsibilities.
In that case, and since he seems to be open to R talk as long as it doesn't get too intense and I stay calm, would it be right for me to start talking about this a little? He will never bring it up. I know that for a fact.
Perhaps if I can break it down into baby steps I can ask for without threatening, it will open the door for him?
