Making the leap - Hopefully wount Jinx it!

[limbo]

I haven't posted for awhile, but now feel the need.

I just don't know what to do, yesterday h could tell i wasn't happy and kept pushing and finally told him, told him that I am struggling with the trust, and that what I need to help me through this is for him to be honest and open about everything.
Well he got really angry, told me to go live with my Mother, told me he still thinks about killing himself, stuff like that.
Then last night while I was looking at his computer, while he was there I noticed he has a menu bar with favorites at the top on one of them was a personals link!
He says he loves me and says he wants this to work however just isn't willing to make the effort! And I just don't know if I want or can continue like this.
He just doesn't get the importance of honesty! and I just can't understand this, I don't know what to do.