Hi L thanks for checking up on me I will go see your thread next - been missing our "chats".
Haven't been able to post for a few days as H is off work so we have been on days out and don't like him to know I'm coming here.
H was really sweet for Mother's Day as S is too young too doo anything for himself. He took S out to buy breakfast for me and got a card and made me a lovely Sunday Lunch. The row the day before was completely forgotten which is an improvement on our "old" M as the sulking would go on far longer.
I feel kind of wierd at the minute. Really insecure and unloved. I can't even really fathom out why in my head because H is doing and saying all the right things. Maybe I'm still struggling to trust him with my heart completely or I don't know if it is because I thought hard about how I wanted a R to be when we were apart and expect it to be just that. I don't konw. H doesn't seem to see why I should need extra reassurance because to him coming back should be all the reassurance I need. Maybe that is part of their alien being. He doesn't realise how much it all hurt.
I was counting up and in 2 weeks time H will have been back for as long as he was away!! I set this as a kind of milestone in my head when he first came back so to reach it is great. Maybe that will ease my insecurity a little.
