I've been thinking about what I need...what needs to happen in my M to progress in healing. I know I'm strong enough to keep the focus on me for now, and that I need to act out of my own strength. I'm fine with that. I'm willing to do anything I have to.
Here's the thing. I don't know where H's head is, and feel a lot of insecurity in the fact that he doesn't appear to feel any need to put himself out there to put this back together. And though I'm fighting it, it hurts to think that he's not really there for me--not willing to be my hero, my partner, my rock. When I've still got his back. It weighs heavy, you know?
