Today was just another day to get through. I slept in and then went to the gym. I had a good aerobic workout, wimped out a bit when it came to the weights. I was still sore from my workout two days ago.
My W and I agreed to meet at the house at 2 pm to pay bills. It is never pleasant, the only interest W has in money is spending it and when it comes to bills, budgets, investing, etc. it just pisses her off. So she was bitchy as expected. Only today her mood seemed to swing up and down about every 5 minutes. One second she was OK and the next she was pissed because when she asked if I was going to pick up my son after school tomorrow I say, “I can” instead of “yes” or “no”. Then the next minute she would reiterate that I could come over and sleep in my house. So that how my day went with her. It didn’t really bring me down, since my expectations have been lowered so much.
One thing that was funny today, my son’s special education teacher called to talk about my boy’s progress to my wife. Anyhow she said what a nice and good natured child he was. My wife was patting herself on the back for this after the call. I did not rain on her parade, but the truth is if anyone should get credit it would be his aid in the classroom who has spent more one on one time with him than my W ever has. I just struck me as funny.
I spent the evening at home with my son goofing off. My W would stick her head in now and then. My boy and I put together his train set which he had not played with for a good while and the W came down and was standing looking over us smiling. I think part of her wants the old life back, but she has spent so much time building walls between us and reinforcing her anger she just can’t change course, at least not now. Oh well, it’s her ball of hate.
Here one more jewel that the W spewed at me Thursday night that is helping me. She said that I have asked her several times what I could do to make things right between us and she said that, “you can die.” I don’t plan on that so I guess she’ll have to deal with it.
