Steelersfan, Yes, I wanted to die! It hurt me so much and only proved that nothing gets by them.
Hey! Everyone let me tell you what happened this morning....I could only laugh(I know bad bad..) last night was the first night in a while that my H came home a late and when he came in he was hopping on one foot and complaining that it hurts, but doesn't know why it feels like a strain.He said it had been hurting all weekend, but would not complain b/c he would get no sympathy hm.. how easily he forgot I nursed his pulled back when we were on xmas vacation. Well this morning I thought I'd be nice and try to include him on my weekend plans only to have him shoot me down AGAIN by saying he would like to alone w/out me and he would spend it w/ his GF. Well..my bad bad self came out (this on IM) and I told him that he should stop "doing it" in his truck b/c he will keep on hurting his leg due to no leg room! Ha Ha! His response- fu@## you! HA!
Later I emailed him a lengthy letter saying how I feel like I have grown and matured in our R, but he was only going BACK in time by living the single bar hopping and one nite stands kida life. I said I understood the emptiness he feels inside and that only one person can feel that hole- Christ! I wished him no evil, but that if he had to hit rock bottom to see the hurt he's caused, then so be it. Also, that I still felt love for him only b/c the Good Lord reminds when he hurts me w/ hateful words that he is only so wrapped up by the Enemy, so much that I can almost see Satan in his eyes! I told him I wish someday he will turn his heart to God and then will he experince how good life can be full of joy, peace and strength. I said that it hurts the girls when he disrespects me infront of them and they don't understand. I asked him not to show his ugly side to them b/c they love him so and we are their role models. His disappearing acts only cause unstability and it rocks there world.
I don't know if he is truly in MLC or just depressed.
