New to Piecing II

[COG]

Journal: Well I kept it light last night. W was busy with life. I just asked her how her day went and then listened and acknowledged her.

Here's a good one though. I bought her some of her favorite candy and hid it under her pillow. As she was getting the bed ready I was there waiting to see her response. She takes off the top pillows and the candy box was sitting there partly exposed. When I saw it I started to smile a little smirk. Well she saw me smirk, but did'nt see the candy. She thought it was my "I want sex" smirk, so she leaves the room as goes out to the garage. Well I knew what she was thinking and why she left the room so I just went to the living room and turned on the TV. Eventually she came by and asked if I was going to bed. So I got up and walked to the bedroom. She still had'nt seen the candy, but there was a bowling ball sized chip on her shoulder. Well she looked down and saw it, and then she knew she'd been convicted. She said, "that's why you were smirking right"? I said, yep. So then she was very grateful, and apologized, and it was a warm goodnight, two kisses and a cuddling. Also opened the door to some positive conversation.

My main point was that it's not OK with me that we just stay together for the kid's sake. I did'nt threaten leaving or D, but I reaffirmed how much I loved her, how I admire and support her, and how things are changing within me. But that also it was time for OUR R to change. I told her that she was made for me, and she agreed.

I'm taking the lead, but I'm leading as a Godly man should lead, not as a selfish child would lead. It's something new, and I feel it's right. It is'nt comfortable yet, building passion, but like anything new it'll become second nature. She's never felt passion like what's in store for her.

The fire still burns!

Love,

COG