The planes made it safely to Phoenix and I finally got to bed... will spend the next two days here doing traffic engineering stuff, and get to go up in a bucket truck for a better view... working tourism of a strange kind...
Thanks for all your posts. I think all of you are right in that there is something of being tested, something of "I want out", and something of "I want a reaction, change" in her actions. Given that she only touched my arm briefly as a parting gesture yesterday, which felt like so despairingly little, then sent a quite friendly email this morning, it seems like she too is lost, somewhere in the continuum between wanting to stay and wanting to go, wanting something from me.
At this point, maybe any change might be good (I was mentally composing "why I am leaving you" letters in the plane). I think that something might be the following ps to follow a friendly reply email on my part:
ps. I was so glad to see you found your wedding band again the other day.
and maybe nothing more. Not how it made me feel when it was gone, or something about that is was off at all. What do you think? Should I tack on this little addendum to a mail?
Lovely orange fragrance in the air last night when I got in - Phoenix at 1am - temperatures in the 80s today - it certainly isn't Sweden - off to breakfast at Denny's -
Luke
M58, xW54 S22, D18 M 1984, D 2016 Living a new life.
