I think I may have posted to you many months ago, when you were posting more. Welcome back.
I wanted to add my "me too" to what cinders, snodderly and pws have posted to you, about pulling way back from your H for awhile. But I did want to soften the response a little. I do think he needs space and time alone. He knows you care for him and he loves you, he's said os. IMO, he really does care for you, and has wanted you in his life all the way through this. That seems very hopeful to me for the long run, although I have to agree with pws that the long run could be quite a time in coming!
You sound very caring. If you can just direct that love at yourself, and others in your life, you may be very pleased at the progress xh makes in your absence. No guarantees, of course, but it seems many of them do find their ways back home.
