Had a long conversation with a friend of mine who feels I letting my wife dictate this whole process. Seems like all of friends feel I letting her control the outcome and I am the one giving emotional and getting nothing in return. I have tried to explain to them the MLC she went threw but it falls on deaf ears. There is a part of me that is fed up with walking on eggshells. I feel I deserve more of a commitment than she is giving, I am the one that broke off a relationship, I am the one that contacts her most of the time and I am the one that has distanced myself from her brother to make her feel more comfortable.
She called me today to discuss a basketball camp for my D10, wanted to make sure it was ok with me. She was pleasant, but I was expecting her to say why don't you come over later. I know I shouldn't expect anything
A part of me wants to sit her down and tell her I need to know if she if committed to making this work and if so she needs to make feel like she is trying. I don't want to walk on eggshells anymore, I deserve better. I know she will never find anybody with the qualities and ability to love her like I do. She has dated, she admits the grass isn't greener. I am not looking for a promise just a commitment to working on meeting my needs. Is this selfish, yes. Is it good DB'ing no.
The converstaion with my friend just got me really thinking, why I am I making all of the sacrifices. I am already divorced, she should be counting her blessings that I will try again.
