Sorry your h told you you were sickeningly skinny. That is just how your frame is built and you cant change it. Like wise my H told me I was too "large" shortly before we reconciled , to wear pants he saw in a catalog. It took all I had in me not to say well sorry I am not like the WH*R&. I saw a pair of her jeans DOUBLE . One of my legs would fit in the whole thing. And now he cant get enough of my booty??!~
So no offense to you sweetie that you are tiny. I am 5'4.5" so I am not very tall either and I unlike you will not post my weight. But I have a big chest and a large bottom ~ strange how they chose exact opposites in figures compared to us, HUH? Well honey do not let it bother you, I held onto comparing myself for far tooooooooooooooooooooooooo long and even if I starved myself I can never look like that , I have 119 lbs of just pure muscle! ( had my body fat measured) For years I have been trying just to be comfortable in my own skin and now I am learning to embrace my curves likewise you need to embrace who you are and be sexy. If and when you exude confidence he will be mush ! I think we all have beauty it is just we are always taught to somehow judge ourselves against one another and our society is so caught up in this one size is best mentality. I hope you can start to open up more too on the ML part,,, it is hard and it wil come with time. I told my H to give me more time and he said well how long do you want me to wait? I wanted to say for as long as it takes me to get over the OW BS buddy! But of course I canot say that so I said I was working on it and now instead of just working on it I am doing it. You will probably need more time Cissy from what I read this morning in your post right now you are still going thru alot and if you had stillettos on that nite. I am sure you had all you could do not to throw it at his head! My H said some crazy SH*T toooooooooooo when he was coming down of his tempoary fix with her... he even had me listen to a message she left him cause he was avoiding her calls.. OMG! WOW I know God helped on those days Cause I never once yelled or I did get angry some and just told him what I was feeling! The old me would have blown up like a VOLCANO. ~ A MIRACLE pretty much... That I did not lose my cool . I also realized that I was above their F&(*((ED UP BS! I let him deal with her and once when she called at nite and I was fed up with it ,similiar to you last nite ,I said that it was enough..... They are relentless though.. they have NO MORALS OR INTEGRITY! Insert more faces. Surely someone must have hit them upside the head for them to be so foolish and decide to take OW in the first place. OOOH wow I have to take a deep breath cause I really am feling physically sick after posting this.... EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW~ Too much. All my best to you honey,, keep your head up high!