I have to say that what RCR has written is good input. While I disagree with much of it given the way I read your history, it is a point of view to consider.
I am at the same point as you are in my R. I wish I knew what to say; I wish I had the answers. But I don’t. Standing or standing down are both so difficult and we can never know for sure that we are on the right path. I too read uncertainty in your words, but that is what I expect to read.
I will say one thing: legal separation has all the disadvantages of a D without any of the advantages. If we are to let go, do it completely. And I do believe that D is only a piece of paper so reconciliation is not ruled out. But it does provide closure; closure we need to move forward.
You are a good woman. You deserve to be happy. I hope you find that happiness.
