J,
The book really does help us to understand what it is that we need.

It explains things in a way that I can not really explain myself.

I think what both you and I want is some type of validation and heartfelt apology from our Husband's acknowledging that what they have done to our families was beyond selfish, it was destructive, even assinine (sp).

We may get one, we may not.

I do know that it was my choice to accept my Husband back into the family. I didn't have to but I do love this man and I also want normalcy for my children.

They have all been through so much already that I feel by allowing my Husband back it will also be good for them, not just me.

There are no guarantees J, none at all.
We can only hope that their MLC taught them to appreciate their family and the blessings that they have.

I do know that I hate the lonliness and the stress of being a single Mom to so many children. BUT I survived and I became stronger then I had to be and I learned so much about myself.

I will NOT ever do this again, if he decides to leave again I will not be standing. I am no longer afraid.

That is the difference between who I was and who I have become.

There can be no testimony without a test.
I am praying to go through this test and come out the other end with a new and better marriage then before.