Oh my, I've been having some dreams, I awoke with a start, when my sleeping mind finally connected some dots. Oh sure, it may be justification, and I realize this, but trying to draw a conclusion why xh has been so evil, so condeming, why he can't remember or want to remember anything good about me, when he always, always said I was a good parent, even in his longest bouts with his anger, he was always grateful the kids were with me.... Then my mind went back to the article about his motorcycle accident, when he was found without a helmet. I kept thinking he could possibly going through withdrawal from alcohol and even the pain killers couldn't mask enough of the symptoms, then I thought maybe his Drs. are reducing his pain meds on top of it, but then I hit me as I slept, his extreme anger, his inability to recall me as a parent, his complete denial of anything positive I did towards the visitation, could it all be signs of an undiagnosed brain injury?
Just before his accident, he said he'd never marry his girlfriend, he was adamant, as he not only told me, but several of his friends. Sure accidents do cause people to change, but that was something I don't think he would have changed, especially to get married just three days after his Sister's funeral. He's not one to lie about things that can so easily proven to be a lie, for instance, me speeding off with D in the car. There were two officers present who could testify differently, he's too smart for that, these are stupid mistakes, just like the email about the SRS. It's as if he wants to be caught.
Sure, this all could be me trying to put a positive spin on things, BUT, I came to this while sleeping, and usually those ideas that come to me during slumber, are usually the most acurate.
Just a thought, and maybe one possible answer out of thousands.
Well, it's time for me to jump into the shower.
Take care of you, God Bless
Love,
Laughing
Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you.........
