I know what you meant by losing yourself and only being a wife and mom. I did the same thing. I am still feeling quite lost, though. I will try some of what you are doing. It sounds liberating!
You shouldn't worry about having a figure like JLO. She has a beautiful figure. My H just told me I am sickeningly skinny and I need to eat! Not a good compliment. I like myself the way I am, though. I am only 5'2 and 112 lbs. I have a tiny figure. With extra weight my back starts to hurt me and I don't like myself. I am not going to gain weight for him. SHE was quite a bit bigger than me. In the chest area, too. I think he liked that, too. Not much I can do there.
How do you loosen yourself about to use the "bad girl" talk. I know my H likes that when we ML, he used to try to get me to talk like that, but never could bring myself to do it and now I want to but I don't know what to say. I am like you. Was raised a good girl and not to talk like that. I wonder if there is a book or something.
You sound like you are doing well. Keep up the good work. When did you say your H is coming home? Take care.

Cissy