Today I had expected to meet my wife at my sisters for a mediated discussion. I called my sister this morning to see what time she wanted me to come over. My sister said my W had called her and said it would be better if we waited a while to do it to allow me to get over her abuse on Thursday night.
In the early afternoon the W called me wanting to discuss scheduling info. She sounded like my normal wife, whatever demon was there the other night was gone today. She discussed her appointments and wanted to know mine, after telling me the other night she did not want to know what I was doing and she was not going to tell me. Then she asked me to come over and pick up my son after school tomorrow and help with homework. She also asked about my mother and her problems and I talked about what I was doing. She then joked about me becoming a good nurse. So again whatever possessed her the other night was not there today.
I did not get excited about her turn around today, I have seen it before. I think I have moved forward a small amount. My wife’s anger and hate on Thursday night have changed my perspective a little. I realized that on Thursday she either had been drinking and drove home after drinking, which I can not accept or she was completely sober and let loose that hatred while sober, which I do not want either. So I realize I do not want at least where she is now, that has helped me detach at least a little more than anything else. I want a good marriage and my wife has to get out and stay out of the place she was on Thursday, hopefully she will.
I then went to the gym and worked out hard. I got a good endorphin rush from the workout and next I had a good meal at a Mexican restaurant. Altogether today’s events have left me pretty calm. I hope I can maintain it.
