R2, Cinders has given you the straight scoop on what is going through the mind of your h. Please stop pursuing him. Your h needs a lot of space and time to heal and to miss you. The more you pursue, the more he's going to run the other way. Stop contacting him and I promise you, he'll start pursuing you. It's the distancer/pursuit game.
Time to turn the focus on back on to yourself and go on w/your life for a while. The alien will phone home again very soon.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
