Its over...she filed part 2

[ImprovedRomeo]

Just saw this kiki...funny I was just about to check up on your sitch. Meh things are OK...do you really want to know? OK rant follows:

I'm bored out of my mind. I want company, I want a woman in my life. After one year and no companionship...it's tough. I looked on craigslist.org and good lord...women there only seem interested in how much you make, what you drive and if you look like an A&F model. Is everyone out there so shallow these days? What happened to love, honesty and faithfulness? Makes me mad because I was 24 and I had it all when my wife entrapped me by giving me the illusion that this was forever. She's moved on now and I'm left holding a beggar cup. I'm also thinking about how the divorce is going to set me back 10 years financially, the money I worked so hard for and saved for our future.

Just everything's on my mind lately. Two nights ago I woke up at 3am from a nightmare where I saw my wife having an affair with her boss/friend who's the CIO of her company - he's married to his high-school sweetheart and has a 3 yo D. This happened because someone recently told me that what my wife did was very typical when there's another person involved. Her boss/friend was my first suspect because he's promoted her, given her the raises, gives her time off without her having to notify HR but mostly because he's more successful than me - I've become so insecure about myself. I guess if she did cheat on me then maybe I deserved it because she cheated on her ex-boyfriend with me even if she threw herself at me 3 or 4 times and gave me a story about how he mistreats her and she's not even in love with him and that she's moving into her own place in a few weeks. She finally succeeded because I always liked her as a friend.

Even though it's all over it's not really over. Maybe I'm not as strong as some of the other guys here that have moved on and are doing well. For me to move on I need a girlfriend to take my mind off of things and to start feeling good about myself again.

EDIT: I like all kinds of music, Avril Lavegne, Dido, James Blunt, Shakira, J. Timberlake, Christina Milian, Frankie J etc just depends on the mood - why do you ask?